The Becoming of Noah Shaw by Michelle Hodkin
Published: November 7th, 2017
Genre: Young Adult, Paranormal
In the first book of the Shaw Confessions, the companion series to the New York Times bestselling Mara Dyer novels, old skeletons are laid bare and new promises prove deadly. This is what happens after happily ever after. Everyone thinks seventeen-year-old Noah Shaw has the world on a string. They’re wrong. Mara Dyer is the only one he trusts with his secrets and his future. He shouldn’t. And both are scared that uncovering the truth about themselves will force them apart. They’re right.
“Before I was even born I was saddled with a burden I never asked for, never would’ve wanted, and don’t know what to do with now that I’ve got it.”
The Becoming of Noah Shaw is as dark, creepy albeit deliciously creepy”, and haunting as the Mara Dyer trilogy if not more. Being inside Noah’s mind is as twisted as Mara’s but for different reasons. The story starts off in London for about a chapter but is really set in New York (my home state). Michelle built a world just as intense as before and really exceeded my expectations. I was not disappointed. This story broke my heart in all the right ways and even though that ending left me completely wrecked I trust miss Hodkin. There are many triggering thins talked about especially suicide so please tread lightly because Noah deals with a really wrecked mind. You see some new characters and some old one and one at the end that leaves you dumbstruck. There are twists and turns everywhere I am still trying to wrap my mind around it all. If you haven’t read the Mara trilogy you must because there are references to those books. I actually have no issues remembering what happens in books so I didn’t need to do a reread but some of you may have to. Book two cannot come fast enough. I am not sure what Michelle will have in store for this trilogy but I trust she will do right by Noah and Mara.
“Which one’s ours?”
“Tonight all of them.”
1) Noah’s Mind & Character (T/W *Suicide mentioned in quote*)
“Those suicides weren’t the first I’ve witnessed. I’ve thought about my own, to the point where as a child the Peter Pan quote “To die will be an awfully big adventure,” felt like a taunt.”
Noah is very complex. There are a lot of layers to him and they slowly get peeled back as the story progresses. He begins to question his role in this world and his role with Mara. Being in his head is both fun and uncomfortable. He is sarcastic, loyal, and severely struggles with keeping it all together. He is also dishonest and distrusting with Mara as the events unfold and I still believe they are a powerful dynamic and duo but, it will be interesting to see what Noah does next with all the info he now has. As well as his old ability he can now knows people’s last thoughts before they perish. I love and hate being in his mind because it’s so dark and twisted but I love morally grey characters.
2) Noah and Mara’s Relationship
“I’m starved for her, all the time, even now—I want every part of her, to devour her, to inhale her, but I also want her slowly; to see her, to listen to her, to listen inside of her, and so I force myself to stop.”
They are endgame and no matter what that horrific yet I freaking knew it ending was I won’t believe it for a second. I really enjoyed that we got to see more of them in this book as a fully developed relationship although they are clearly still working a lot of mental stuff out. They are utterly sexy and make me blush and fan myself. It’s so cute when Noah say’s “my girl” and I 100% believe he will be saying it again! The way Noah wants her not just sexually but in all ways is heart stopping. How he speaks about her is breathtaking which is why the distrust and distance were so hard to read. The ending has a lot of meaning with him saying it’s not their ending so I can only hope Michelle saves them.
“We’re home.” If I’d been standing her words would have brought me to my knees…Her touch throws off sparks of colors I’ve never seen and notes I’ve never heard, and I slide her beneath me and press my mouth to hers.
Michelle Hodkin is one of my top five favorite authors. One of those reasons is because of how amazing she writes. She grips my heart and has me clinging on to every word. I know for a fact I won’t feel ok with this story until I have book two because of how heartbreaking she wrote this. Her words are so twisted and alluring she is a weaver of words and maker of magical books.
“Keeping a secret is like throwing that heart into the air and playing catch with it by yourself. But what you’re really playing with is someone else’s love, someone else’s happiness.”
The whole novel kept me on the edge. I felt like I was turning down dark corridors and not knowing what will come next. It wasn’t chilling like the Mara Dyer ones but, it was thrilling and mysterious trying to understand what was happening. When the secrets are revealed it was shocking not because you can’t imagine it but more so why things happened.
“I post- and preemptively apologize for literally everyone at this table, for everything they’ve said or are going to say, for the rest of the night.”
We see the old and new character’s in The Becoming of Noah Shaw and one the end that really leaves your mouth open. Jamie is still sarcastic and funny but he takes on a new role as you come to see. Daniel is still smart and protective but he and Noah have such a deep bond and you see how he really intertwines in his life. Mara oh Mara. She comes into her own and unapologetically her and I love her for it. Mara no longer is apologizing for who she is and I am so intrigued to see her and Noah now in book two. Goose is new and I love his dynamic with Noah and the rest of the crew and you’ll be interested to see how he plays into everything.
I am so sad it’s over and I am demanding Miss Hodkin stay off all social media until book two is ready in my hands. The ending is not the end they are iconic gifted legends and the world will deal. This prophecy can stick it and I can’t wait to see Noah destroy the board and him and Mara to have the ending they deserve one written by them! It’s just facts lol. I hope you enjoyed this review and the book if you read it. Until next time adios!